i dunno

i'm pretty glad i went to school today although i really didnt want to go. josh was in nus too and he bought me coffee powder from bali =)
i went for a project meeting. the project was... i dont want to say anymore. this is probably the only project that i felt ashamed of because it was a bad start. anyway i just aim to get a C since that is the minimum requirement to get a "satisfacory" grade as i m s/uing it.after the project meeting, i went to the CNM office to visit Dr. Millie went with my entrepreneurship society president.
Dr Millie is giving us some cash money out of goodwill to sponsor our trip to China. Well although its a small amount, we're really glad. we bought oreo cheesecake for her in return.i bumped into the lecturer who called me power babe and she said my group's research paper was very well written.i bumped into Gene, who's a really nice lecturer. i asked her if halcyon is leaving nus. she said "yes, thats very sad".
irene had previuously told me that halcyon was leaving nus through msn.i had wanted to go to halcyon's office to have a chat with her, but she wasn't in her office. i feel really down and sad when i heard she is leaving nus. i dunno y. perhaps i felt a connection with her. she is the only lecturer whom i could walk into her office and whine and i m really open with her during our conversation.
she is a person whom i feel comfortable enough to tell her some of my thoughts which i would never share with other lecturers..i took a module on media writing when i was in yr 2. halcyon was one of the tutors introduced by the course lecturer. when i saw her, i thought she looked really unique and special. i guess this is called the connection moment. And she became my tutor. so this is fate. although i didnt enjoy her tutorial lessons as she was very very anal with writing style, but with her, all good things seem to come. my media writing article was published on TCO and she was my academic advisor for an internship module. i was one of the first few students who map an internship to a module. she also actively recommend me all sorts of internship when i voiced my concern about my indecisiveness as to what to work as in future. it is really sad that everything seemed so transient. i mentioned this to josh over msn and he said people come and go, including him.And this reminded me of the many people whom i had known, but whom i had lost along the way. Perhaps these people may not seem significant to me, but i do not know how they feel.likewise, halcyon may think that i m just one of her students, but i feel really down when i know she is leaving. often, many stuff are not within our control. this relates to the movie i just watched with jinwei mark and josh. Lust, Caution. besides the lead actress superb acting skill, and her determination to kill the lead actor , she was finally moved by his true love and did not murder him in the end. sometime feelings just run wild... sigh.. i dunno. i just hope i could meet halcyon before she leaves for the USA. she has told me that she is a PR practioner, and not an academic. i guess she felt its time for her to move on as she may not progress much in NUS. perhaps when u decide to move to the greener pasture, u have to be prepared to leave behind many relationships you've forged. this reminded me of wanjing who stay put in HSA because of her friends, and Nick who remains in Mt Elizabeth after so many years as he enjoyed his companionship with his colleagues. although they may have better career prospect elsewhere. but there are also people like someone whom i knew who mentioned that changes are no big deal as he has lived in the uk and malaysia and singapore and friends come and go.i dunno.... haiya getting too long winded..